She left the nest, each day trying to piece together the laws that maybe. Surely this living thing came with a manual. She needed quiet time to make sense of it all. So she left those of her race and ventured alone into mans old habitat. There she learnt about creatures of the world. But they cared not much for her and went about their own things. With time she felt a growing weight increase its load over her, a kind of unhappiness. No, not a physical weight, but some unseen force blurring her vision. Something felt amiss. She happened to be reminded of a musing in philosophy, about whether or not a tree falling in a forest made a sound, if no one heard or saw it. Could she really be sure of her beingness, if there was none to echo against, to let her know if they liked how she looked today, and report on the liveliness (or lack thereof) of her hair and skin. At that thought she saw the warthog she spotted earlier and thought of calling it over for a talk. No, she was not successful, dear reader, for no one here seemed to take the slightest of interest in her. So she decided to return to the land of her kind, and seek to fill the invisible void.
After many sunsets, she happened upon a person walking the other way on a path. They were a little taller than she was, but with same dark skin, only smoother. The person had a slender body, but had arms, legs and a core that betrayed no weakness. Sweat glistened over their neck; must be son of the town’s farmer this one. Then she happened to meet his gaze…the scariest and most exciting moment of her life. She felt like one peering into a precipice, and knowing they wouldn't succeed against its lures, that they would be pulled in and be at the mercies of some strange force. The velvets of his lips parted as he addressed her, a voice which to her sounded like a sweet melody, one more eternal than anything Stravinsky could have ever dreamed up.
That night, with her head to the boy’s chest, amongst the meadow and river sounds, she dreamt.
She was on the forest bed of some jungle, eerily quiet. Then sounds seemed to return from wherever they had been withheld, and her vision was a slowly focusing blur. She heard the voices first before the wispy smell of smoke. “She’s up”, said a groggy voice, followed by a staccato of grinding sniggers that she reckoned could have only come from a dozen ogres. Sure enough, the behemoth that strode to her side and bestraddled her didn’t fall short of one of those hideous beasts you hear of in fairy tales. The stench of his skin was a deathly warning, his nearly toothless smile and scarred face told of a tumultuous inhuman existence. He lowered himself onto her to the roar of his companion’s approval. She feared what was to come next, and nearly cried upon realising the source of the biting she’d been ignoring around her wrists and ankles…as it was nothing but the leather binding they had used on her. She thought she heard a wooshing sound somewhere, followed by a couple others. The Ogre grunted, trying to follow the source of the sound, only to have its head suddenly explode into a gory violent crimson, like a bursting watermelon, its lifeless body slumping sideways. All was quiet now, except the fading scales made by a quivering arrow that had buried itself in a nearby tree bark.
She doesn’t know how long she had been writhing beneath the corpse trying to free herself, when a mighty strong hand curled itself around her and lugged her on its shoulders. Something about the powerful hands of her new capturer told her it was futile to try attempt an escape. But something was different about her new capturer. Being carried like a sack of potatoes, she couldn’t see much. The capturer had long black silky hair, that reached the back of the knees. The girl could see their glistening ebony skin, as it stressed and relaxed from the action of considerate calf muscles, wrapped in taut sheets of dark skin. She was reminded of the greek myth concerning the tribe of Amazons…for it was now clear to her that her new capturer was a woman of considerable strength...she doesn’t remember whether it was the rocking motion or the fact that her head was upside down for long that caused her to fall asleep…
She woke to the sight of warm flickering light, golden, and the crackling of softly burning wood. There was a hint of myrrh and other incenses in the air. Her head turning to follow the scent met the gaze of an enchantress, or at least that is what she thought. Her hair seemingly caught in an eternal billowing wind, like the living snakes of Medusa. She met the eyes of the enchantress, their corners disappearing into the recesses of her hair just as they were about to curve out of the outlines of her head. Fighting the enormous gravity of her eyes, the girl dragged her gaze to take in other exquisite features of this ebony spectacle. She saw the fullest lips she had ever seen before, glistening and beguiling, had a gravity of their own. Much she cannot remember of what happened afterwards, or perhaps it were that all of it was dwarfed by the supreme feeling of awareness that now swept over her. The feeling of immortality. It was a differently shaped chest she was sleeping on tonight, but the same heart was beating underneath it. She looked up at her, to get a better view of her face, feeling supremely calm, as though resting on the very bosom of the master of the universe, and listened to the powerful rhythm of life, pulsating.
Her eyes opened one last time. The sound of the river wisening her senses. She was back in the meadows, in the embrace of a different kind, but still pretty much the same. Looked into the still sleeping face of the boy and felt her heart torn apart. A part of her wished she hadn’t woken up. And yet another part of her was filled with an even greater sense of belonging to this real world. It was getting lighter and one could make out the outlines of the surroundings. She rested her ear on the ebony chest and listened to the eternal rhythm. She smiled and strengthened her embrace around him, as if weary that he too may be part of one of her dreams, only to wither away with the opening of her eyes. The farm boy smiled in his sleep, and held her closer. She wanted to stay like that for as long as possible; for she was reminded of a quote from a book by some guy Mitchel:
“Souls cross ages like clouds cross skies, an' tho' a cloud’s shape nor hue size don’t stay the same it’s still a cloud an’ so is a soul. Who can say where the cloud’s blowed from or who the soul’ll be ‘morrow? Only Sonmi the east an’ the west an’ the compass an’ the atlas, yay, only the atlas o’ clouds.”
